urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x Cammy dizzle. Cammy dizzle. 2006-09-29T18:13:27Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:69428 2006-09-29T18:12:18Z 2006-09-29T18:13:27Z New livejournal <br /><br />deathstarcammy add it please. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:69317 2006-09-29T16:23:25Z 2006-09-29T16:46:15Z okay so i got everything set up for the CD release show on the 14th, i really hope deathpact can play but it sounds doubtfull. we are going to use our PA system for the moniters, i just need a huge 1/4 inch cable. everyone has to go and buy a CD. please. i'm buying my new guitar right after school today and then going to shiggas to play it untill i go to work. then tonight.. DEGRASSI WITH AMANDA urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:68997 2006-09-29T12:38:24Z 2006-09-29T12:38:24Z i wish i knew the answer,<br />i wish everything would be okay. forever,<br />i wish i could concentrate,<br />i wish i wasnt lost,<br />i wish we were still lost,<br />i wish you believed me<br />i wish i knew what i was wishing for.<br /><br /><br /><br />i wish... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:68753 2006-09-28T16:31:00Z 2006-09-28T16:31:00Z Where have you gone?<br />How Does time pass by so fast<br />Seems like yesterday<br />You and I<br />We Could Relate<br />But you know how things change<br />But is it me? Or is it time?<br />Now I'm stuck looking back<br />On somehting that I'll never have again<br /><br />All this time with regret<br />I Just Lost Today<br />Worrying about yesterday<br /><br />Can't live in yesterday<br /><br />All this time with regret<br />I lost today<br />Worrying about yesterday<br />I lost today<br />And No I'll never forget about you<br />I lost today<br />I just came to terms that I've lost you<br /><br />On with my life urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:68560 2006-09-28T14:54:51Z 2006-09-28T16:40:51Z i'm so fucking tired right now its not funny. i'm skipping because i dont want to get yelled at for sleeping in class agian... i have to work tonight and i think i might be able to buy my new guitar tomorrow.<br /><br />I cant see this comeing to a close. the walls are closeing in, but i'm too much of a fatass for them to get much smaller, they will break eventually.<br /><br />rideing up with jake to the deathpact show saturday. he said we would leave around 3 or 4... mmm. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:68130 2006-09-27T16:34:37Z 2006-09-27T16:40:50Z i'm falling behind in school, so i'm staying late today. 6th period library to do an essay for Finley, Staying late to work on proofs with Allen.<br /><br />why the fuck did that effect me so much? i really wish i wasnt such a jelous person.<br /><br />i fucked up my second project in a row in audio. i'll fix it tomorrow because i dont feel like doing it now.<br /><br />i really dont want you to get sick of me............ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:67937 2006-09-25T17:18:30Z 2006-09-25T17:23:20Z soldering makes me want to scream naughty words.<br /><br />my dads grandma died. i'm not sure if it makes me a horrible person because it didnt effect me at all... i havnt seen her in like 4 years and she didnt remember anyone anyways. seriously though.. it did not effect me AT ALL. my dad just told me and all i said was "oh.." <br /><br />my head hurts.<br /><br />I LOVE ASSHAT. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:67831 2006-09-22T16:29:14Z 2006-09-22T16:29:14Z okay so i cant find my wallet.. this sucks... it had everything in it, plus 20$ my bank shit, my liscence, my social security card. everything. fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:67488 2006-09-21T15:43:38Z 2006-09-21T15:46:45Z once again.. i think everything is going to be okay. i guess i just cracked from a lot of stress that i didnt need. but please, take it easy for a little while.<br /><br /><br />i love you amanda... 3 months tomorrow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:67090 2006-09-20T16:57:36Z 2006-09-20T17:07:16Z i quit. fuck you all. i cant wait to get out of here. all but a few select people can go fuck themselves, you know who you are. i'm done, find a new friend, a new bassist, a new whatever the fuck i am to you.. your dead to me.<br /><br />just incase you happen to be retarded, the few people are greg, amanda, cede, and corey, there are a few others that dont come immedieatly to mind. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:66875 2006-09-20T14:51:35Z 2006-09-20T16:09:59Z i was thinking about it... we've been through so much allready. we have both witnessed complete euphoria in both polar opposites of happiness and anger,frustration,or depression. even through all of this, i still want to remain by your side through everything else. yesterday there was two explosions of emotion that just made me think about all of this. And even before that, i was thinking that i feel like i belong here. it was a strange feeling and i didnt recognise it at first. when everthing is going swell, this might be meant to be.<br /><br /><br />"there are 6 billion people in the world, what are the odds that i would find the perfect one?" <br /><br />i think i may have beaten those odds.<br /><br /><br /><br />oh and you... all of you. your words mean nothing. i know what i want, what i can do, and what i need. so fuck off.<br /><br />i'm in a hip hop mood today, kanye, luda, public enemy.. good stuff. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:66683 2006-09-19T15:42:44Z 2006-09-19T17:25:35Z gr.. i cant get this entry right..<br /><br /><br />youre retarded, i hope you know. i'm sorry but its the truth. if we werent friends i would want to punch your organs.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i wish i could tell the future.. but i dont have to to know that cant ever work. you are just going to get hurt again.<br /><br />know this motherfucker... if you ever hurt her again... i will kill you.<br /><br />"it wont be long, we'll meet again." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:66454 2006-09-18T17:09:01Z 2006-09-18T17:09:01Z NSK official CD release show!<br />friday, oct. 12. Chester Underground, 6$ doors open 5:00<br /><br /><br />Napalm Sticks to Kids<br />I'm not billy (with new members, if you havnt seen them yet their great)<br />Orange Juice<br />The Anti-Rockers (bratt. punk band)<br />possibly one other (for valor?, Shrapnel?, Deathpact?) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:66291 2006-09-18T16:30:29Z 2006-09-18T16:32:44Z its hard to believe that it was exactly 3 months ago last night that i kissed you for the first time.. finally i have been able to hold on to something... sometimes, you still make me weak in the knees with that kiss, and when i think about it enough.. i can still feel your lips on mine.<br /><br />in the words of yoda- "patience, young padawan" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:65981 2006-09-18T16:13:53Z 2006-09-18T16:25:25Z just answer me a few questions honestly... are you happy?, what if i wasnt here anymore? would you wait for me? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:65745 2006-09-15T17:26:56Z 2006-09-15T17:26:56Z greg has a home game next teen night again.. so i think we might have to wait over a month to play a show. unless we can set something up in like 2 weeks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:65381 2006-09-14T17:14:29Z 2006-09-14T17:33:06Z "does it have a happy ending?"<br /><br /><br />"We havnt gotten that far yet..."<br /><br /><br />i've been wishing for you at 11:11 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:65225 2006-09-12T16:41:05Z 2006-09-12T16:42:23Z put your teeth on the curb and we'll crack your fucking head,<br />fuck with one, your fucking dead<br />your teeth shatter as it fades to black, see the crimson water run as we break your back<br /><br />snap, crackle, curbstomp<br /><br />a curbstomp leaves a puddle full of blood as your body leaves your soul behind,<br />a broken jaw is your own damn flaw dont you ever fucking call me unkind.<br /><br />snap, crackle, curbstomp,<br /><br />STOMP ON YOUR FUCKING FACE<br /><br /> i love our music... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:64960 2006-09-12T16:23:29Z 2006-09-12T16:23:29Z dont fall for this agian.. you know what happened last time.i'm sorry, i just dont trust that situation. after somethign like that happens, it can never be the same. i know you want this to all have a happily ever after and i know what deffinately wont happen. i just dont know what everyone else thinks will happen.<br /><br /><br />"Numb and broken, here I stand alone<br />Wondering what were the last words I said to you<br />Hoping, praying that I'll find a way to turn back time<br />Can I turn back time?<br /><br />What would I give to behold<br />The smile, the face of love?<br />You never left me<br />The rising sun will always speak your name<br /><br /><br />i mourn for those who never knew you" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:64581 2006-09-08T17:01:22Z 2006-09-08T17:01:22Z so many thoughts going through my head...<br /><br />"is this the end?"<br />"are you okay?"<br />"i thought i actually did something right.."<br />"you promised"<br />"i promised"<br />"i'm sorry"<br />"do you want a break?"<br /><br /><br />you go through more shit than anyone else i've ever met and i just feel so bad for you. i know you dont want sympathy buy i'm afraid that theres nothing else i can do about it. i try so hard to make you feel better everyday. better physically, better about yourself, better about me, better about anything you want. i just want to be there for me... and for the first time in my life last night i actually felt like someone was there for me. i just laid there staring into your eyes knowing exactly what i wanted to say but i couldnt get the words out. you just wiped the tears from my eyes like i had allready said it. i have to stop because this is starting to hurt again. if i am causing you too much stress just tell me and i will stop for a while i guess. whatever i can do to make you feel better this time. i love you and i dont think i could ever stop, no matter what you will always have me and you allways have,ever since that night at town hall. i had my fairytale beginning where it was almost love at first sight.. now i just want a happily ever after...somehow. i need you to make one more prommise... promise me that no matter what, you wont ever forget me and that i've made a difference in your life... okay so thats two promises.<br /><br />"i really think you've saved her. i mean think about it.. where would she be if you never came along?" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:64358 2006-09-07T17:09:58Z 2006-09-07T17:14:59Z paradise by the dashboard light can we play this song at our ring pop wedding before we take out to the countyside with our RV and pokemon games?.... yeah i'd like that. i guess i do daydream i just dont realize it. i daydream outloud to you. you really are my favorite and i really dolove you. really really. after all.. i promised, and thats one promise i know i can keep.<br /><br /><br /><br />I remember every little thing<br />As if it happened only yesterday<br />Parking by the lake<br />And there was not another car in sight<br />And I never had a girl<br />Looking any better than you did<br />And all the kids at school<br />They were wishing they were me that night<br /><br />And now our bodies are oh so close and tight<br />It never felt so good, it never felt so right<br />And we're glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife<br />Glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife<br />C'mon, hold on tight<br />C'mon, hold on tight<br /><br />Though it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night<br />I can see paradise by the dashboard light<br /><br />Ain't no doubt about it we were doubly blessed<br />'Cause we were barely seventeen<br />And we were barely dressed<br /><br /><br />Ain't no doubt about it<br />Baby got to go out and shout it<br />Ain't no doubt about it<br />We were doubly blessed<br /><br /><br />'Cause we were barely seventeen<br />And we were barely dressed<br /><br />Baby don'cha hear my heart<br />You got it drowing out the radio<br />I've been waiting so long<br />For you to come along and have some fun<br />And I gotta let you know<br />No you're never gonna regret it<br />So open up your eyes, I got a big surprise<br />It'll feel all right<br />Well I wanna make you motor run<br /><br />And now our bodies are oh so close and tight<br />It never felt so good, it never felt so right<br />And we're glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife<br />Glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife<br />C'mon, Hold on tight<br />C'mon, Hold on tight<br /><br /><br />Though it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night<br />I can see paradise by the dashboard light<br />Paradise by the dashboard light<br /><br />You got to do what you can<br />And let Mother Nature do the rest<br />Ain't no doubt about it<br />We were doubly blessed<br />'Cause we were barely seventeen<br />And we were barely<br /><br />We're gonna go all the way tonight<br />We're gonna go all the way<br />And tonight's the night<br /><br /><br />Stop right there<br />I gotta know right now<br />Before we go any further<br /><br />Do you love me<br />Will you love me forever<br />Do you need me<br />Will you make me so happy<br />For the rest of my life<br />Will you take me away<br />And will you make me your wife<br />Do you love me<br />Will you love me forever<br />Do you need me<br />Will you make me so happy<br />For the rest of my life<br />Will you take me away<br />And will you make me your wife<br /><br />I gotta know right now<br />Before we go any further<br />Do you love me<br />Will you love me forever<br /><br /><br />Let me sleep on it<br />Baby, baby let me sleep on it<br />Let me sleep on it<br />And I'll give you an answer in the morning<br /><br />Let me sleep on it<br />Baby, baby let me sleep on it<br />Let me sleep on it<br />And I'll give you an answer in the morning<br /><br />Let me sleep on it<br />Baby, baby let me sleep on it<br />Let me sleep on it<br />And I'll give you an answer in the morning<br /><br /><br />I gotta know right now<br />Do you love me<br />Will you love me forever<br />Do you need me<br />Will you make me so happy<br />For the rest of my life<br />Will you take me away<br />And will you make me your wife<br />I gotta know right now<br />Before we go any further<br />Do you love me<br />And will you love me forever<br /><br /><br />Let me sleep on it<br />Baby, baby let me sleep on it<br />Let me sleep on it<br />And I'll give you an answer in the morning<br />Let me sleep on it<br /><br />Will you love me forever<br /><br /><br />Let me sleep on it<br /><br /><br />Will you love me forever<br /><br /><br />I couldn't take it any longer<br />Lord I was crazed<br />And when the feeling came upon me<br />Like a tidal wave<br />I started swearing to my god<br />And on my mother's grave<br />That I would love you to the end of time<br />I swore I would love you to the end of time<br /><br />So now I'm praying for the end of time<br />To hurry up and arrive<br />'Cause if I gotta spend another minute with you<br />I don't think that I can really survive<br />I'll never break my promise or forget my vow<br />But God only knows what I can do right now<br />I'm praying for the end of time<br />So I can end my time with you<br /><br /><br />It was long ago and it was far away,<br />And it was so much better than it is today.<br /><br /><br />It never felt so good, It never felt so right<br />And we were glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:64138 2006-09-07T16:48:07Z 2006-09-07T16:48:36Z god dammit i hate you so much.. you make my life difficult every day so why cant you just stop? i dont konw how many times i can apologize just for meeting you.. to myself. to anyone else, but i'm sorry okay?.... i'm sorry everyone i wish i never did any of it, it was a mistake and from the next day to 6 months later i feel like shit about it okay? is this what you all want? i wish she would die so i didnt have to hear about her anymore.<br /><br />i hate you desirae. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:63806 2006-09-06T17:29:10Z 2006-09-06T17:29:10Z "so what if i never hold you, or kiss your lips again?<br />so i never want to leave you, and the memories of us to be." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:63522 2006-09-06T16:06:16Z 2006-09-06T16:06:16Z i have horrible diarhea... i am afraid to poop because it hurts.... got out of work yo. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:avengedx7x:63470 2006-09-05T16:33:11Z 2006-09-05T16:33:11Z last night i wanted to just keep driving... past trebo rd. past everything we have ever known as home. go to that place where nothing bad ever happens and just keep driving forever. with your head on my shoulder singing along to whatever came on the radio. i love you so much and i never realized how much untill then.